Macau

Have you ever been too brave to wrap a ring around it,

Bowing down on your knees, you were nervous, your heart was running.

And she was stunned and, 

Appreciated but,

She probably didn’t believe I can,

Kalau dah tawar hati akan,

Aku berundur,

Pembangunan yang maju, menjadi mundur

That was the reason, so why’d you question?

You were fucking blind to see the love that was possessed in,

The heart, and the blood that ran around the beat, god damn it was blending.

So stop acting your clueless, nothing is kept hanging, nothing’s on pending

It’s just ending, and it has ended,
But some old woman didn’t have to bash me like I fucking meant it,

You see? Oh wait, how could you see?
You prayed upon the sky, while I fucking drowned in the sea,
The hate is too strong, it became my ecstasy,
I intentionaly wrote this blog for my fucking ex to see.

Ahmad kepada Elmo

Bangun pagi,
Nak pergi pasar,
Pagi apa , bodoh lah kau Matt, dah masuk asar,
Ingat masuk waktu subuh rupanya aku tersasar,

Itulah,
Niat nak pergi pasar sebab nak beli lauk,
Masak sedap-sedap, so bila kau datang kau pun kena lauk.

Doa harap bala jangan ditadah Ameen,
Kalau rasa kau dah hebat Matt tolonglah tengok cermin,
Niat jahat memang selalu tak ada jalan baik,
Kalau dah mula langkah camtu tolonglah patah balik.

Shame

At times I dwell at the past,

But I know I’ll do well for my future,

And if don’t take a step to go ahead,

I know my presence is going to be a torture

Like I told you,

Didn’t grip you strong enough to hold you.

Keeping memories of our shared Spaghetti Oglio,

But I’ll never leave you like once upon a time said, yeah I told you

You never listened,

But you had a list and,

One of them is you believed that I’m never leaving,

But in your heart is a place I’ll never live in

Understand This

Yesterday I heard wedding bells,
And now I’m stuck,
I’m in hell,
In a cell,
If I yelled,
You can’t tell I’m suffering

Heavy breathing,
Life’s a gamble, I’m bidding,
But I feel you’re deceiving,
So I’m  leaving, and I’ll runaway

Faraway,
Don’t know where,
Got no way, at all means,
To throw away, all these memories

That is stuck,
In my head,
But the heart you just fucked,
This is shit out of luck,
Why the fuck,

Am I not over this.
You forgive,
I forget, no I don’t,
Sedondon?
Oh hell no, we’re not meant to be,

One for another.
But who’s crying? My mother.
Did you ever bother of
The tears of my lady? No.

Call me crazy, I’m mad,
Yes I’m mad,
This is Matt,
You had met long time back.
If you can’t recall, do your math,
Aftermath,
In the end, it’s just hurting me.

Fly

Terikat, tak berikat,
Terikat kepada batas,
Pemikiran ku tersekat, idea aku terbatas.

Okay, so aku tuang air,
Isi dalam botol,
Sedut sikit-sikit lalu hembus berkepul..

Awan nano nano,
Aku tak kemana,
Masuk dunia khayal, jumpa kau disana

Berangan, bersentuh tak rasa tangan,
Sedut sikit sikit, overdose kalau boleh jangan..

Jiwa muda,
Oh jiwa terbang,
Dedaun bukan kuda,
Mak kau tak kan bimbang.

Skrrrrpppp puff puff.

Pfsch

Going deep made me lyrical,
It’s not meant to be so you let it go,
A strenght to face it is a miracle,
If it was fate i would have marry her.

Carry her,
Cherish her,
Be with her,
I will bury her..

..Deep in the soul,
From besi buruk to gold,
But you left everything inside me shattering macam kena tukul.

You won’t understand this shit ey,
You still don’t understand ey?
Had to comfront you to say..
I walked into your life, then run away.

Atau mungkin you tak mengerti,
Erti untuk mengerti ey,
Mengerti apa itu erti.
Erti bagi you tiada erti.

Skrapphhhh.

Fuck this shit.

Belum Masuk Zone

The stakes get high,
She walked in the corner and said hi,
I was crazy in love,
Aku jatuh hati sohai.

Oh hello, apa nama? Boleh kenal?
Dalam hati dah follow IG so aku buat-buat tak kenal,
But dia sebenarnya instafemes, tengok followers dah tahu dia terkenal.

Aku amik peluang,
Nak belanja minum Starbucks oh wait, tak cukup wang,
Nak lepak kedai mamak pulak selalu penuh sampai tak ada ruang,
Masa terbuang..

Untuk mengatur strategi mengenal hati budi,
Tapi kalau tak berminat kau tolong kasi tahu awal-awal kau tak sudi.

Gerudi,
Mencari salah aku dalam mengenali,
Silap yang aku selalu ulangi dari zaman azali,
They call me Elmo tapi cikgu aku panggil aku Ghazali..

Or maybe Ahmad,
Prophet’s name in eternity,
Maybe it was my fault i chased for your look and not your personality,

Tapi apa kan daya,
Walau kita sebaya,
Aku masih jatuh tengok gambar you berkebaya,
Bergaya,
Mungkin nak curi hati you aku tak berjaya,
Masih ber I dan you, tak sempat clingy level awak dan saya.

That would have been cute,
But aku rasa twitter aku pun confim you dah mute,
But usaha lagi aku tahu is the key, you..
Never would believe i see hopes for me and you.

Aww matt.

Skkkkrraaahhhh.