Thursday, December 18, 2014

Closure.

Okay I don't know how others approach shit, but this is how I do it.
I know I have been angry, I have been outraging and shit. 
Everything in life has been so wrong.

You should have known that what ever memories you gave me, I appreciated it.

You just had no clue you saved a lonely ass man like me, that's why you meant the world to me. And that's why I got disappointed when you decided to shut up. Oh well, it's your feelings, who the fuck am I to disrespect that.

I loved being around you man, it's like you're the most beautiful thing I've seen that ever stood in front of me. I got pictures I took senyap-senyap to proof it.

But anyways..

Friends please listen, don't end up in shit like me,
for love is a game for two, 
It doesn't matter if she doesn't like you, tepuk sebelah tangan,
Tak kisah, b

Because love is a game for two.
And one day, you'll get your second player.
You can cry all you want, biasalah perasaan manusia, but don't do something stupid
(say no to drugs) lol

So if anyone wants to share this to her, well silakan.
I'm not in the state of talking to her still, ego yang tinggi. Oh well. 

Tuesday, November 25, 2014

Deep tanpa deep.

It really never ended,
You know it's true when people say that love is a game for two.
Kalau aku sorang yang terburu, tiada guna.

Aku benar cinta,
Tulung rusuk tak bergetar seperti dulu,
Jantung tidak berdebar seperti dulu,

BUT ..

Aku masih mengharap.

This reminds me of the vow.
At one moment you love,
The next moment you forget,
And it's like the same person with a different love,
Like same shit lain hari.

I know your friends don't like me,
But your friends can go suck their own pe..
(Nasi lemak pagi tadi sedap btw.)

Post kali ini tiada unsur deep, sebab aku menulis ni dalam keadaan tak deep.
I got over shit like way way back.
It's nice to write deep when you're not deep.

Like makan tapi tak lapar, you came for the taste.
So i'm posting shit like this to understand my own feelings.

At this moment, I feel empty.

It's like losing my five senses.
It's like I don't feel the love nor the hate.





Friday, March 28, 2014

Jika tuhan izin.

Saya dah tetapkan.
Ini cubaan terakhir.
Tapi ini bukan peluang terakhir.

Bukan niat untuk berharap,
lagi tak terlintas untuk melepas.

Kalau saya diberi pilihan untuk berfoya,
Banyak pilihan diluar sana,
Saya pilih untuk tidak,
Dan saya juga pilih untuk berdiri menunggu,
Dengan setia.

Saya benar-benar tidak harap Fatheen jadi milik saya,
Siapa saya untuk lawan ketentuan tuhan?

Ini bukan kisah jodoh,
Ini kisah kesabaran.
Ini kisah pendirian.
Ini kisah yang aku cuba bina.

Rumah tetap berdiri tanpa tangga,
tapi tanpa setia tiada rumah tangga.

Saya bukan calon yang kukuh,
Dan awak juga,
Tapi kenapa saya masih ada hati, 
Berkali sudah ku tanya tuhan.

Tuhan bagi setia.
Ok.

Saya langsung tak risau bertepuk sebelah tangan,
Kalau kahwin kita bukan main tepuk-tepuk,
Tapi genggaman agar ikatan kan kukuh.

Satu yang aku pinta,
Sedarlah saya ni tiada hasrat berlumba,
Best man wins it bullshit.

Saya tak harap awak kan tunggu, dan saya tiada hasrat untuk pergi.

Jadilah itulah kisahnya.